Who do you share your stories with?

Actually above title was quoted from one of the email that i received.. it is from Oprah’s Book Club..

Tajuknya nampak interesting.. “Who Do You Share Your Stories with? My Answers are, My mum, Kak Ila and My Precious Journal..

Dua character pertama memang orang, boleh mendengar, boleh membalas, mengutarakan pandangan and pendapat… and i really appreciate that.. and i luv both of them…

They are my secret keepers.. hehe (apo bondo secretnyer.. tak der maknanya) So, with whom did you share your stories?

Have a nice weekend all. 🙂

Pengetahuan Am – Curiosity (Jangan gelakkan aku Plzz..)

This story probably not important to your knowledge, but probably this could be the moment where i can memorised this information. longer probably for a lifetime. 🙂

Memorization is best when an event occurred or taken place the moment you are the main character of the story or event. Most of the time. For instance, i learnt about word “Selak” or kunci when i was in form 2.. sadis kan…? before that i never heard of that selak (bukan menyelak langsir and etc etc) is also to lock or mengunci. An event, where my auntie reminded me to lock the room before i slept. I was like.. blur when she said “syikin, tolong Selak pintu tu “.. i walked to the door.. but doing nothing.. weird huh?.. hahaha (aku rasa nak gelak je).. My auntie again told me to “selak” the door. I replied.”Selak?”.. Ya allah Kunci syikin..(Duuhhh..) after that simple event.. i learnt that “selak” is actually mengunci. Haha..lawak. And yesterday was another event.

Independence day is just around the corner.. and it is a trend most of buildings in our country will be decorated with various colours of flags.. Same goes to my workplace.. from the very highest peak of level 12 sampai laa lower ground.. they hanged colorful flags at each level of my workplace. Each level of this building are dedicated to a private balcony.. Me at level 4. So i see these two flags everyday,One is Jalur Gemilang and the other one is “unknown”. when i am out from the elevator.. From the very first day.. i kept on asking myself.. hmm yang itu bendera negeri mana haa..? until yesterday… was the moment..

it was 1735 i guess.. boss pun dah balik.. just few of us, which are still working. Am supposed to go back at 1830.. So i made an announcement..a.k.a. buat bising..(kecoh pompuan nih..)

“Hey korang… korang tahu tak bendera apa kat tepi tuh..? Aku dok fikir-fikir.. imaginized each flags in malaysia..masa aku dalam toilet.. hmm i dont know which state it belongs to. kalau penang, with pokok pinang.. , if sabah with puncak kinabalu, pahang and terengganu both with the same colors, just different on the design.. perak also No.. sarawak.. hm no.. “
One of my friend, said.. “EKin.. i think u shud tender ur resignation letter.. that is Mesiniaga’s Flag..”

Aaa?(objecting.. (my usual style)) “no way,” i replied. “I’ve seen mesiniaga flag.. it’s white in color and of coz with its name on it.. nono.. u salah laa.”

“Korang.. i think i know.. i dah imaginized all states except one.. let me guess..Aku teka itu bendera negeri Perlis..”(kawan-kawan aku pun nampak blur and not confident with my answer..except one , Alex agreed dengan aku.)

“Korang.. let me google.. aku nak confirm betul ke tak jawapan aku..”
Me at the same time.. feel a bit shame if i got it wrong.. haha bendera negara2 africa selatan aku boleh teka masa olympic.. inikan pulak negeri dalam negara aku sniri.. hmm what a shame..

I googled and i referred to Wikipedia Encyclopedia and i found this.. Aha.. indeed.. it is definitely belongs to negeri Perlis…

hahaha laugh out loud. (I got it right.. Yes..).. hope that i can memorized this information.. perhaps for another 60 years.. hahahah (bendera negeri dalam Malaysia pun tak hafal.. sengal je bunyinyer).

Note: Pengajarannya… tolong belajar pengajian am. Hampes je tak tahu.. ahaks

Secara Langsung.. :)

Aku rasa lama betul aku tak meng-update secara langsung dekat blog kecik nih.. Ada sahaja yang tertunda. Bz..paling aku tak boleh lupa kisah aku hampir2 melanggar seekor kambing yang agak tinggi dari hadapan kereta kancil aku dalam perjalanan balik dari class. Entah dari mana kambing hitam tuh datang.. tiba2 dari tepi jalan dia berlari ala2 kuda yang dalam sukan equestrian.. nampak slow tapi laju sebenarnya. Dengan kelajuan 70km/sejam aku sempat break walaupun tak berenti terus, tapi jarak kereta aku dengan kambing hitam tuh just less than a meter.. alhamdulillah aku tak langgar kambing tuh, and kereta kat belakang pun tak dak. Aku yang kat dalam kereta beristiqfar panjang dengan incident itu.. fuhh alhamdulillah selamat.. kalau tak.. tak pasal2 kereta kancil aku tukar nama.. jadi kereta kambing.. (aku rasa kalau aku langgar kambing tuh, cermin depan kereta aku akan pecah. atau lebih teruk kambing tuh boleh tergolek ke arah aku.. or probably aku jadi arwah sekarang… Gemuk ok kambing tuh.. sihat ya rabbi )

On Saturday 12 July .. yang aku ingat aku pi main tennis ngan tenis buddy aku kat 3k, Subang Jaya, bila habis main lepak2 keringkan peluh, sambil minum air kelapa muda kat restaurant SG, 3K. Judd pun belanja aku beli over grip untuk racket aku. Tq Judd.

Habis main tenis, aku balik rumah terus ke bilik air. Mandi solat zohor and terus keluar and memandu ke Serendah. Abang aku dah ambik mak and abah dari Ipoh. So abang aku suh datang ambik dorang kat rumah abang. Aku memandu kereta kak ila dengan kak ila and Hidayah sekali. Aku sampai umah abang waktu tuh hujan lebat sangat sangat. Terpaksa memayungkan kak ila and hidayah sampai kedalam rumah abang. Bila aku sampai umah, mak pulak tak berapa sihat. Aku just stay sekejap and menjamah sedikit hidangan ikan tenggiri masak kari kat rumah abang. Sedap.. Kak yati memang pandai masak. Tak lama lagi Abang aku akan dapat baby baru tak lama lagi.. Anaknya yang kelima. Wow.. abang aku paling express antara kakak2 aku. (hampes) Kak sila dekat NZ baru informed aku thru ym and call bagitau mak and abah yang dia sah mengandung anak ketiga. Hahaha bertambah lagilah keluarga Hj Abdul Wahab.. and bertambah lagilah anak buah aku.. hmm akan menjadi 16 orang.. huhuhuh. sure meriah kalau dapat kumpul ramai2.

Petang tuh jugak around 5pm aku balik dalam keadaan hujan lebat dengan sedikit banjir di antara Serendah ke Rawang.. lucky kereta kak ila OK. Thanks kak ila. 😀 . Hmm opah pun ada. Sekarang ingatan Opah aku tak macam dulu.. banyak perkara yang baru-baru dia tak ingat. So on Sunday it happened that kak ila bekerja and baby sitter kak ila pun bercuti balik kg, so aku yang menjaga hidayah. Sambil menengok mak yang tak berapa sihat, demam panas dan opah yang memerlukan tuntunan. Abah mujur boleh uruskan diri sendiri.. and lucky i have energy to handle all these…

Alhamdulillah waktu itu aku tak penat and merungut.. thanks Allah.. for giving me my patient and strength. Mak kalau demam, memang semua benda dia tak mau, makan, even mandi pun susah. Opah pepagi aku kena mandikan.. siapkan breakfast and lunch. Nasib baik hidayah tak meragam masa nak tidur. Actually ada kenduri yang supposedly mak nak pegi.. mak suruh gak aku pegi kenduri kat block sebelah, katanya nanti apa pulak nenek kata.. Lepas kak ila balik dari kerja, about 3pm aku ajak kak ila pegi rumah nenek saudara kat block sebelah. Terima kasih kak ila.. sebab temankan ekin. .. tiba waktu petang aku kena mandikan Opah. Hmm rupanya melayan orang tua nih memang betul2 macam budak kecil..manja and nak kena belai. . Malam sebelum tidur Opahku akan di pakaikan pampers. Ingatan nya tak berapa mengizinkannya untuk ke tandas bila tiba waktunyer. Fikiran aku memang tidak boleh lari dari memikirkan waktu aku tua nanti macam mana..(kadang-kadang terpikir yang aku tak mahu hidup sampai usia yang lanjut)

Monday morning aku berkeras gak nak bawak mak pi clinic. Aku sms Rahimah, that i will be a bit late to the office this morning. Rahimah replied OK. Mak aku jenis degil skit. (macam aku jugak kuang kuang kuang) Mak masuk bilik aku bila keluar dari bilik air.. bagitau yang dia tak mau pi clinic “Kin.. tak yah la pegi clinic tuh..mak dah sihat” I said “No. Mak kena pegi jugak.” Lepas aku mandikan opah and bawak mak pi clinic baru aku rasa tenang masuk office. I called makcik aku untuk tengok2 kan mak and opah dekat rumah. Makcik aku datang ke rumah sambil bawak makanan untuk lunch. From my office i called for update. Abah aku said OK. Malam tuh aku ada class sampai kul 10pm. Aku mintak tolong kak ila siapkan makanan abah, mak and opah malam itu. Kebetulan kak ila tidur rumah aku malam tuh. Tq tq tq.. Tq so much for the helping hands.. (Macam manalah aku nak balas.. )

Mak is getting better on Tuesday. On Wednesday, makcik aku pulak nak bawak opah aku kerumah nya..Sebab aku kena bawak mak pi medical follow up kat UMMC. sampai hari nih opah masih dekat rumah makcik aku. Sakit pinggang.. kesian opah.. Aku teringin nak bawak opah jalan2 dekat midvalley or KLCC. Masalahnya kereta aku kecik.. wheel chair opah tak boleh masuk kereta kancil aku. hmm Opah aku jenis adventure. Sukakan perfume, berbedak and cukup menjaga penampilan dirinya walaupun dirinya buta. Bab makanan opah tak kisah.. Dia rock.. makanan apa sahaja dia boleh makan. hehehe.. Sure Best kalau boleh bawak opah jalan-jalan.. ( mungkin aku bleh pinjam kete kakak aku.. :D)

Semalam aku pi main tenis ngan my tennis buddy lagi.. huhu kali nih main lebih syiok.. judd kata my strokes are better.. heheh tqtq next time kita lawan.. probably next week ka.. kita main kira mata.. hahaha (macam terror).. Tengah syiok main hujan pulak.. sementara menunggu hujan berenti and court kering aku enjoyed tengok orang main netball. hahah pemainnya terdiri dari lelaki sahaja. hehe mula-mula aku gelak. tapi mamat tuh kata.. dorang memang dah lama ada group and they are actively playing this game. no kidding they are damn good. bagus tau dorang main.. Mamat tuh siap promote lagi kat aku, if kat office aku ada orang-orang lelaki yang nak main netball… hahaha interested?

Tadi aku pi main kat tennis wall kat Kelana Jaya.. ramai pulak orang mai waktu petang nih. Kak ila and hidayah teman kan aku.. hehe Hidayah dah pandai jalan nanti boleh main tennis ngan Auntie.. 🙂 FYI, Hidayah dah pandai panggil aku Auntie.. Tapi sebutan nyer ATi.. “T” yang berbunyi seolah-olah dia menyebut huruf “Ta” yang cukup hamas nya. hahahah

Esok bermula minggu ketiga kat tempat belajar aku.. hmm aku tak tengok pun lagi soalan2 untuk project sem ini.. i need to start early and be prepared.. aku tak nak ketinggalan.. Anugerah dekan seterusnya impian aku.. Ahaks.. (berangan lagii!! ) insya allah. 😉

I’m feeling it now.. the impact of fuel price hike.

Since the day one of fuel price hike.. today is my first day.. giving away my RM62 just for 23 liters of petrol rather than RM43, previously. Fuuuhhh.. for the first time.. i’m feeling the pain.. aduss.. can you imagine those people who always fulfilling their fuel tank? serious sakit.. Always.. always.. the word is always.. no wonder.. when i browsed through the internet there are so many stories about sacrifies… Why sacrify?.. it’s about fuel and its cost. no kidding.. life is changing damn rapidly… silap orang boleh dapat stress tahap cipan..

How are we suppose to change our life, if our current condition right now, is so-so… not to say kais pagi makan pagi.. but.. just so-so. (Alhamdulillah).. Can you share with me?.. What are those things that you can think.. that probably we might change or reduce .. just to ensure that life’s OK in our current imbalance situation now

boleh bagi idea? Please and kindly drop in your idea(s) – if any. 😀

Life is getting tougher and toughest..

Kemaafan dendam yang terindah..

Entry ini, tiada kena mengena dengan tajuk lagu di atas.. Lagu Aishah. Mungkin related skit.. MAAF.

Merenung diri sendiri.. masih banyak perkara yang aku perlu perbaiki.. masih banyak yang perlu aku belajar.. untuk melengkapkan diri aku dengan ilmu dunia dan ilmu akhirat..

Setiap hari, perjalanan hidup aku, aku jumpa ramai orang.. macam-macam. A person with 90% on positive attitude.. pastu tiba2 jadi -90%.. Why are there some people yang macam nih? is it because they failed to handle and control their anger?.. is it because they never face any failure in life and vice versa.. or is it because they already immune and they are made to be like that? Too many reasons actually… at most.. is because they have different background, different lifestyle.

Untuk tarik muka when something happened to you, it’s normal.. but if you already knew the person… and the person is actually your good/best friend.. apa tak boleh di maafkan kah? i’m not saying that.. aku tak tarik muka.. hmm ya for certain situation definitely aku akan tarik muka gak.. ( bila tak tahan ) tapi taklah sampai tak memaafkan..

Everybody, in our life.. for sure ada buat salah.. kita bukan maksom. kita bukan malaikat. I’ve already set in my mind that.. i have/really to forgive.. but will never forget. Aku rasa kesian dengan kawan aku yang hidupnya tak boleh maafkan kawan sendiri.. atau mana-mana orang disekelilingnya. Rasa sedih because.. kawan-kawan aku nih antara orang-orang yang baik-baik sebenarnyer.. tapi mungkin keadaan yang buat dorang jadi macam tuh.. hmm i cannot help them.. because they already matured and adult, boleh berpikir sendiri.. tapi sayang.. masih tidak boleh memaafkan..  Aku pun risau kalau2.. ada apa2 yang aku buat.. or mistakenly saying something yang boleh buat dorang kecik hati.. manalah kita tahu kann. kawan-kawan aku nih tak memaafkan aku..  Alang-alang nak dijadikan cerita.. kalau aku mati.. hmm aku tak di maafkan oleh kawan sendiri.. Should i stay away from them? I can’t because they are my friends. Apa khabar dia haa..? lama aku tak dengar berita dia.. kalau dia bercerita dengan aku pun.. hmm seumpama bukan bercerita dengan kawan.. tapi dengan musuh..

Dan seingat aku.. tak ramai orang nak berkawan dengan dorang.. bukan sebab dorang cacat or hina dina.. tapi just because people dont agree on their opinion.. Yang peliknya.. kenapa orang lain tak boleh terima dorang seadanya.. ( hmm actually takut jugak nak berterusan berkawan dengan dorang.. because.. takut tidak dimaafkan.. ) tapi aku tetap berkawan and contact kawan-kawan aku.. tapi sampai bila.. boleh ke kawan-kawan aku tuh berubah?… i wish they could.. one day. Insya Allah

Hanya tuhan yang tahu..

AKu suka quote Dato’ Dr Fadhilah Kamsah. Sebelum tidur.. kita maafkan semua orang..hati akan jadi lebih tenang

Cabut awal hari nih

Aku bz sangat minggu nih, bt between kak ila and me, r ok. We successfully sort out our problem. And the friendship go on. Happily perhaps. Maybe i’m a bit confused on the situation at that time, mm perhaps because of my feeling at that time r so fragile.  Well a lady, what do u expect.   ..

Mak aku tak berapa sihat, malam nih memang aku kena bawak dorang ke hospital/klinik dah demam 3 hari. Aku risau. Bukan pasal musim, masalahnya mak aku jarang kena sakit, so bila dah sakit alahaii kesian nyer. AKu sniri tak tahu nak buat macam mana. Kadang-kadang bila aku dekat rumah, aku risau, Mana tak nyer yang ada is abah aku, mak and aku. Abah aku dengan lelah and batuk yang kuat , mak yang demam, and aku plak ikutkan kena stay kat office sampai malam, Sepanjang minggu nih, baru semalam aku balik lewat skit, kul 8 baru aku turun office, balik aku rush ke rumah kak aiza, ambik barang aku.

Hari nih aku nak balik kul 5pm, mintak-mintak boleh lah.. kerja aku nih tak menentu, kalau dia nak bagi banyak, banyak lah kerja nya, sampai aku naik fed up stay hari2 kat office, No life. I want a “life” and breathable life. Baru best and ada makna. Ini, keluar pepagi gelap balik pun malam. mmm Totally no life. I want my normal life… aarrhhghghgh.. geram aku.

A Heart Catcher pic above. Cantik kan.. ? Guess what ? Someone give me that present ? hehe No laa..  sapa nak kasi!!.. tapi cantik kan gantung kat pintu. Hehehe.

Husband-to-be, Wife and IbuMertuaku-to-be

Aku tak sempat nak tulis blog nih semalam. Sibuk sangat, sampai rumah, mandi, makan and tengok tv. Citer Natasha. Mm mak aku dok marah pasal citernya sikit sangat, tapi iklan dia panjang ya rabbi. Ya rite.. banyak sangat iklannya, aku rasa ada la dalam 30 minit je citernyer. Apsal la si TV3 nih desparate sangat nak letak iklan kat tv dorang. Kurangkan skit boleh tak. Sama la jugak jadinyer kat citer .. alahai apa ke tajuknya, haa Dalam hati ada cinta, memang citertuh ada jugak dekat Astro, tapi kalau tayang kat TV3, skit punyer la banyak iklan, Citer yang 30 minit plannya jadi 15 minit je view, 15 minit lagi iklan. Last-last, aku yang tengok 1 dua episode takder hati langsung nak tengok, sampai la season 4 ke 5 sekarang. Kat Astro punyer pun aku tak tengok langsung.

Aku keluar office dalam jam630pm, nak train and LRT. Sesampai je kat Komuter station, ada sorang perempuan india nih dok tanyer aku train lambat ke, aku reply, mm maybe delayed. it was raining that evening. Cantik sangat scenery from up here. Nampak kabus lepas hujan kat nun di hujung bukit , bukit apa aku tak sure, but very nice. Alam rasa tenang and damai sangat. Sayang aku tak der camera di tangan. Nasib baik dari tempat kerja aku ke LRT station tak basah and tak kena hujan. Kalau nak kena hujan pun from the Subang Jaya Komuter station ke kereta aku. hehehe. Aku park kete kat subang Jaya station hari nih. Pasal menghantar kak ila yang masuk keje kul 7am. Husband nya keje malam, so dia bermalam kat rumah aku.

Dalam train dari Kl Sentral, aku bersembang dengan one lady. She is 47 years old, indian, and a single mother of 4 sons. She has a triplet sons and all grown up and now they are 24 years old. But honestly, she look so young at her 47 years old. mm she told me about her boys and her future-ideal-daughters-in-law and about her mum-in-law. heheh Now that i know, all Mother-in-law-to-be, like and dream of a good lady. hehe So as my mum, and i believed all mum in this world.

Ok.. Let’s say Husband/Son = s ; Younglady/Wife = w ; and Mum/Boy’s mum = m.

Ok the scenario is >> s, w and m are living together. By history, as m notice and everybody noticed that, w is a good wife to her s. But after few months, something happened and conflict occurred. who to be blamed ?

Can u just imagine, how 2 women, which is m and s , love/care one man, aka s. Woman are made to be sensitive, sometime can be soo sensitive, plus emotional. the unique feel that allah gave to us. With these two women, different background, diff opinion, conflict can occur at anytime. I believed this, no matter how nice and sweet that lady. the m can (at any time) misunderstood the w, and vice versa. Give and take would be best for a temporary solution. If only the w have enough respect and always bare in mind that ” oo she’s an old lady and let her be like that”, i’m the one who suppose to be more flexible, coz i’m young. ” Do u thing that all young lady can understand this statement ? heheh . It has to be a long journey for her to understand this, i guess. if only she’s willing to learn and to share her feeling with m. Does m really cared? mm that’s all depends on how w brilliantly tackle her (m) and made her understand and give w way to love and care her s. heheh

For me, personally, it is very complicated relationship. But once u understand the roles between w and m, then only u can cope with the relationship. The best case scenario is to be apart from ur m, otherwise u have to be very patient and learn/study a lot about ur new neighbour, which is your mum-in-law.hahaha. For a lady, it’s so good if u had a very very strong and good relations with ur mum-in-law. The worst case scenario, the w , probably will never face her m by herself. hahahaha walla.. masa tuh mmg saper2 pun dah tak boleh tolong kot. hehe Mintak-mintak aku tak mau macam tuh. susah hidup aku nanti . Aku mau “kamcin” dengan my future-mother-in-law. hehehe. baru aku selamat kot.

All these things, sometime make me wanna choose a guy without mum or dad. hehe yatim piatu la.. mm maybe they will respect my mum and dad more, or worse, langsung tak tahu hormat orang tua.. hmm pun tak boleh jugak..

mmm what a nice chat i had with that woman, Ms Shanti.. nice talking to u…

Whatever it is, i think the s, must be very clever to play his roles, dont mess up with ur responsibilities to ur m and w. Good luck to all.