Beautiful message

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,
‘Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.’

The little girl said, ‘No, Dad.. You hold my hand.’

‘What’s the difference?’ Asked the puzzled father.

‘There’s a big difference,’ replied the little girl.

‘If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.’

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person you love rather than expecting them to hold yours…

Hargai Nyawa.. hati-hati memandu

Cerita raya aku tak sempat update lagi.. banyak kerja. sibuk dekat office sibuk dekat tempat belajar.

Office, still busy with the UAT, the postmortem and feedback on the UAT, trainings and compiling this and that. semua nak focus. dekat tempat belajar, soon as balik cuti rasa malas, tapi bila dah sampai dekat class, jumpa kawan-kawan, mind-injected with assignments, presentaion, oral, research and project.. tiba2 tak jadi malas.. jumpa kawan2 jadi rajin pulakk.. hmm atleast i feel good when i returned from long holiday..

Semalam, ada adhoc meeting, still related with UAT, the postmortem of new system and etcetera sampai kul 530.  My mind already focus on oral.. keep saying to myself.. how am i supposed to tell a story in Mandarin.. adoiyaii.. sebelum jejak kaki keluar, solat asar dekat office, since dok teringat surau kat kampus very uncomfortable, due to air conditioner nya not properly work.. sadis.. almost a month dah.. Lepas solat terus masuk kereta and drive ke campus

Tak sampai 500 meters, aku dah nampak dari jauh, jamm arah naik ke carrefour subang, decided to go straight ikut wisma consplant.. jalan clear.. i was speeding almost 70km/perhour.. tiba-tiba one lady came out of nowhere.. crossed right infront of me.. a split second i looked at my rear mirror.. no car behind.. brakesssss… bottle air bergolek jatuh.. sambil mulut aku mengucap..”oo my god” repeatedly.. my car.. was suddenly stopped exactly infront of that lady. and this lady..also standing still.. nothing.. aku tak sempat tengok muka dia pun. yang aku nampak orang dalam kereta lain dok menengok.. dok mengeleng kepala at this walking lady.. lucky i didn’t hit her.. otherwise.. sure tercampak.. she was crossing the road.. while the other 2 lane was like kura2.. and suddenly.. walk like nothing.. on my lane.. istigfar panjang aku.. sepanjang ke campus..

Where is my script.. where am i heading.. kepala aku jadi pening.. almost painted.. shaking.. and shocked.. minah tuh elok jee berjln.. without saying anything.. at last aku yang mengangis dalam kereta.. and shaking.. dok imagining.. if i hit that lady.. wild imagination.. boleh patah kaki.. or lagi teruk lumpuh or patah pinggang.. aku pulak jenis, lepas kereta aku tiba2 stopped. i didn’t go out..and shout out loud or even honk my car.. nothing… i was driving helplessly.. rasa nak pengsan.. jantung aku pun bleh dengar sniri.. berpeluh, walhal air cond punya swing besar aku on..

sampai campus.. i feel that my entire body was so weak.. walking slowly.. pi kedai nearest.. i need sugar.. sugar.. rasa mengigil tak hilang lagi.. rasa sensasi yg sama bila tak dapat makan.. i drank milo.. a bread and walk to the class.. kepala masih weng weng.. i didn’t check either read my mandarin script.. lucky laoshi (lecturer) aku asked me to relax and sit down.. one by one.. habis oral.. exactly after magrib.. sambil membaca cerita aku.. berdoa biar laa aku lepas oral nih.. dalam kepala masih terbayang kalau aku langgar budak pompuan tuh tadi..

lucky and alhamdulillah..aku terundi utk cerita yang memang aku tahu and dah hafal… lucky i can still “see” the story in my head instead of a story “nak langgar budak”…  adoiyaii.. horror pengalaman nak langgar orang nih.. apakah halnya kalau betul2 jadi.. ya allah.. mujur laa nyawa budak tuh masih panjang.. kalau tak.. kaki sapa yg lumpuh tuh..? anak sapa? tunang sapa? isteri siapa..? or mak siapa?.. pening…

after class.. ada discussion with friends.. kepala weng skit lagi.. tapi bahan nak present nak kena touch up.. after classs, drive balik umah, singgah beli itu ini for makan2 at my office.. by 1030 i reached home.. .. nasib masih menyebelahi aku..

p/s: so.. hati2 di jalan raya, baik memandu membonceng atau jalan kaki, hargai nyawa anda and orang yang anda sayang.. sekali anda silap.. tiada U turn… once it happen.. there is no turning back… check tyre, ur brake and everything.. i just can’t imagine.. if aku penyebab nyawa budak tuh melayang.. camner nak hiduppp? ya allah.. thanks for saving me yesterday..  Amin

Iftar with Clients

As usual, every year when there are special occasions like hari raya, the KIAM will organized a little initiative for mesiniagans, and indirectly it helps KIAM to add some side  income for its fund…

And This hari raya they have this, hamper sales, gift and everything.. ada cookies, dodol, kuih raya and etc.. This gift commonly sold in a good package, nicely decorated and you can dedicate these gift to your colleagues and office mates.. and these two cuter gifts i received from Inaz and Laiyee. Thanks dear.. nih buat i sayang you berdua nih.. kisses and hugs Muahh

That evening, we  were invited for buka puasa with our clients.. AKA our business partner. hmm tiba2 ramai pulak tak boleh pegi, maklum la nak dekat raya. Punya la payah aku nak ajak budak2 call centre to join.. adus.. mmg betul laa kata TLnya.. budak2 nih anti-social.. hahaha sabar je la..

Akhirnya aku dapat ajak Lily to join me besides having boss nuar, simon, imran to join us. Team business partner are from India and from a Singapore base company.. lily, imran and me went to Sunway Resort, Sun and Surf cafe dengan kereta simon. Malas pulak nak drive and tinggalkan notebook dalam kereta that could be dangerous to me and my car.

Approximately 615 kami keluar office, jalan ke sunwaay pyramid jam tak bleh cakap, tapi masih boleh bergerak. My initial plan thought nak balik umah mandi and salin baju, hmm tapi pikir2 balik tak payah laa. Walkthrough system baru pun habis kul 5:15.. so terpaksa la aku berbuka ngna baju yang dari pagi aku pakai. sampai je kat hotel tuh, Simon parked his car at the open car park.. terus ke cafe @ level 1.. walla besar nyer cafe nih..

It’s buka puasa, and the usual rate is RM92++, but since we are invited and makan free, i dont care laa kan.. Food jangan cakap.. i think they have all sorts of menu.. cakap je teringin makan apa.. Fuhh aku as usual makan slow and bit by bit.. Ini my starter..

I like kerabu.. any kind of kerabu.. i ate it twice.. diff plate.. heheh, the other one is Mee rebus, bean sprout-free.. tak berapa suka makan kalau taugeh campur dengan noodle..  Gravy dia sangat-sangat excellent. Lepas habis strater.. aku took another plate yang biasa2. pastu went for solat magrib and continue.. hahaha until 9pm..

pastu dah tak dak gambar food dah.. enough with one.. because we are into it so much.. balik rumah, badan dah penat sangat.. tapi my style,  badan penat tak boleh tidur selagi tak mandi.. tengah penat2 tuh mak aku ajak masukkan duit dlm envelop raya.. hmm elok gak mak tgh nak tolong aku pun tak larat buat sorang-sorang.. habis jugak kerja aku.. bahagian aku and my sis kat NZ pun kirim duit raya utk adik beradik kat sini.. aku yg tukang distribute. pemegang amanah raya la katakan.. hahaha .. every year mcm tuh.. hmm semoga murah rezeki kak..

Done with duit raya, 1230 cerita Qamar Bani Hashim pun habis.. badan tengah penat giler, masuk bilik air, mandi bersihkan diri, waa fresh.. solat and tidor best..

Ramadan 1430H

Ramadan, nak masuk Shawal dah.. kejap je rasanya. Cepatnya masa berlalu..

Rasa macam puas pulak cuti panjang 3 hari untuk 2 minggu berturut-turut. Walaupun tak pi mana2, tapi Alhamdulillah. Ramadan kali nih skit berbeza. Tak macam tahun-tahun lain. Paling jelas, aku tak dapat buat terawikh pun(this could be yr last ramadan Ekin!!), instead, siang hari and sebelum subuh ada banyak masa luangkan untuk ibadah. (konon)..

Setiap hari Monday to Thrusday ada tazkirah sebelum waktu zuhur dekat Audi level 1,.. alhamdulillah dapat la curik masa and learn something. I feel lucky, and ada masa untuk dhuha sekali..

Dekat rumah nih, untuk buat kuih raya, sorry la.. hmm nak harap aku buat haram laa.. biasanya beli kuih kat makcik aku je. Spirit buat kuih tak dak laa.. kakak2 aku yang rajin buat kuih pun, yang mana ada anak2 kecik yang nak makan. Biasanya bebudak kecik yang excited nak buat kuih nih..

Pagi tadi mak and adik aku dok arrange perabot dalam umah.. walaupun aku kurang setuju, biasanya kat umah nih mak aku yang bleh decide pun.. betullah tuh.. aku dok umah nih pun hanya tidur and rehat. Selebih masanya kat tempat kerja dan class, masa kat umah pun hujung minggu je. Aku baru lepas gubah bunga.. hmm tak la mahir pun main cucuk2 je.. satu vase lagi kuntum bunganya tak cukup pulak.. in mak aku nyer favourite.. suka tukar bunga… and aku tolong cucuk2 ajer.. hmm apa la rupanya.. biar la kan.. apa pun janji mak aku suka. ahaks..

ok? hahaha main suka2 jee

How to get good grades.. I need some help here..

I’ve been thinking and wondering..

How do i get good grades.. ? hmm i have this book.. kind of self-help book that i bought somewhere in 2001. i dont know whether it is still in my book shelves or in a box.. kena selongkar nih..

Friends, do you mind, if you could share some of your tips.. in order to score.. hmm to be honest, am not gifted with a very bright brain, but i believe that, if there is a will, there will be ways to get there.. hmm berangan nak dpt very great result.. i know that i didn’t push myself to the fullest..

As a kick start.. since it is still the very beginning of the semester.. hmm need to sort out..what is the best and what bad for me.. in the other hands.. hmm bab pantang makan itu ini.. alhamdulillah me ok with it.. no instant food, instant noodles, not taking any kepala ikan (memang tak reti makan pun) no to all animals inside n deep organs.. (memang tak berapa suka pun).. what else.. I like honey, but not to raisin and dates.. (haa problem yg nih)

Hmm tapi memang aku tak puas hati dengan result aku kali nih.. CGPA aku turun… aarrghh.. now is 3.4 cam ner nak aku improve result nih..? Especially for subject like.. hmm say.. Reseacrh paper.. please.. some tips.. (solat hajat and tahajjud kurang kot ).

Thanks in advanced…

Good day!!!

MJ-BALIK-MY

Haa ada nampak sawang tak? aku rasa aku tak clear kan sawang kat sini betul2.. Hahaha my previous entry was.. like a house with piling only.. hahaha This time.. insya allah

Huhu.. july and june, has taught me alot.. i’ve been thru another version of “ujian”. hmm tuhan dah nak kasi sakit itu ada hikmahnya.. and that is why my precious journal a lil bit empty and bored.. dah buat scan and MRI..So redha aje (alamak.. lupa mkn ubat lagi.. opss, sat no).. harap2 terhapuslah dosa2 kecil aku.. . 1st Aug, i will see him again, Dr Nuar.. doctor aku ada Datuk, but unfortunately, aku rasa, ramai patients dia panggil Doc ajer. . Dah byk sangat title.. org pun tak tahu nak address apa. Whatever it is.. doctor nih mmg glamour kat hospital nih… Now new name.. Sime Darby Medical Centre.. no longer SJMC.

Forth of July, kakak aku and family sampai dari NZ.. rindu bukan kepalang… Sebaik jumpa.. dakapan erat dari kakak, and dua anak buah aku.. aaa lega and rindu sgt. Diam tak diam, Aug 1, aku akan hantar dorang balik ke sana.. aaa macam2 urusan kakak aku buat.. salah satunya shopping.. katanya “kitaorg duduk sana mcm org miskin, dekat sini baru balik berapa hari, duit entah berapa habis bershopping”.. mad huh? Anak2 buah aku, dah sorang jadik org NZ sorang org UK.. sorang2 speaking and kesian mak tak fhm. dorang nak explain in bahasa pun tak fhm.. however.. after a week.. bahasa melayu dorang dah improve.. especially misya, 7, . Aku encourage dia baca buku bahasa.. Lucky comic doraeman yang di beli, ada dalam translation ke bahasa melayu.. and she seems eager to learn n read.. Good.. And satu Misya is chubby like me.. hahaha Look at this.. this is the most current of her chubby cheek..

MJ, Misha Joe

Selain shopping, Mikhael bersunat, kenduri and khattan buat kat umah abang aku, dia yang volunteer nak mikhael di sunat kat sana. Dia la yang booked clinic and etc.. Last saturday aku ke umah abang dekat serendah. Aktiviti lain, the very first week, kakak aku and familynya, naik keretapi ke Ipoh, sebab nak pinjam kete kakak aku yang kat ipoh, otherwise, how do they want to move here n there while they are in KL..?, dah lepak Ipoh, kakak aku bawak mak n abah ke kelantan pulak. Katanya nak tengok rumahya di sana. Soon after that, dorang terus ke rumah abang last Thrusday.

Sabtu lepas aku ke rumah abang @ serendah, with kakak ila, husbandnya and Hidayah and loqman. (BTW, last thursday Birthday Hidayah 16/07). Seronok dia dapat picture dictionary from her mother, Hidayah is 2 now. aku nak beli apa aa..? Hmm Big Hug ok? She likes to sing, macam-macam lagu dia nyanyi, Adik and my mum, siap nak beli mic utk Hidayah, which i dont really encourage… Aku kata “jangan.. beli barang lain..”

Most probably kak Sila akan balik ke kelantan lagi sekali, hmm katanya nak buang barang-barang lama dari rumah, senang katanya nak balik lagi dua tahun, sure lagi banyak barang yang akan di bawa balik..

Now, my routine, had just started… harap2 semuanya ok.. and result yang lebih baik.Berangan nak dapat First class… hmm kalau tak first class pun, second class upper. hmm boleh kee?.. usaha tangga kejayaan ekin.. U got to try and try and dont ever give up. Re-strategies and just go and grab whatever opportunity that comes along to you.

Siti – “Satu” Concert at Istana Budaya

last Friday i went to Siti’s Concert Satu @Istana Budaya. What i can say is.. This concert is another concert that brings the Diva closer to her fans.. Sharing stories and feelings.

At one moment she was deeply touched, thinking of her late father, that was not there, on that concert.. Afterall, the Biarlah Rahsia that once i listened repeatedly before, i think that very nite, i can understand how she feels (bukanlah 100% pun.. probably 40% ajer).. It’s so hard to be Siti. We probably seen her in a very nice dress, flooded with luxuries and attentions, but at last i think, money can’t guarantee your “happiness”, agree with me?

I expect that i can really enjoy her great voice.. i wish that she could perform in an acoustic show.. No doubt that she has dozen great singles… unfortunately the sound and music that nite does not reach my expectation. Nevertheless, i like the way she performed for one song, which i donno the title but it has this japanese music stream… best ala2 Geisha pulak aku tengok dia perform.. Wish that i could see her again performing in TV.. Lagi best if she could perform with the japanese instrument.. entah apa nama aku tak tahu..

Overall, i enjoyed her songs and performance that nite.. she is definitely a very prestigious singer.. eventough she dont have catchy songs like Mnasir.. but she is definitely in her very own style…

Empty Planning – Planning Empty.. Which one?

i just don’t want to stop, i am not stopping but am looking and observing.. unable or probably not very good at explaining things or probably its best to keep it here… Hopes that am not losing it.Wishing and praying.. I dont to lose it.. still want to keep it.  Still wanna keep it on here..Mind and Heart…

It’s been an almost empty sem break for me. I mean my blog entry.. Quite and.. I may not losing any idea to write here, it’s just that i have so many things in here, i have two to ten stories in my draft.. hmm not knowing.. when i can publish these… Too many constraint… Unable to share the voice that i’ve recorded on the previous meeting with Brother Lim Jooi Soon… and un able to embede a good link in this wordpress. hmmm kena pegi ke authorised web.. AKA popular web, then only i can paste the link.. hmm just forget about it.Rasa malas nak carik..

A kind of empty sem break because i dont go anywhere to release my stress… tried to plan a short vacation with family.. hmm nampak gaya it does not working.. Hidayah just discharged of her dwi-weeks sickness and admitted to the hospital.. and of cause, its really toughed week for me and her mother.. for more than 3 days i overnight @hospital.. kesian hidayah. Now she is catching up with her weight.. kind of lose some and just gain about few grams i think.. all because of Rota virus. Hidayah is definitely a clever girl.. she knows how to escape herself from taking medicine… “Nak tidor” she told me… and she kind of alergi to all uniforms ladies.. The nurses precisely. So every one hour you will here her little cries due to the visit by the nurses.. bukan apa just untuk di ambik suhu badan shj pun…

Got to use myskills to seduce her to eat. hmm aku la jadik “Maria tunku sabri” of my own version.. And it works.

And this morning.. i was again in the hospital.. accompany kak ila, hidayah and luqman. For the third months injection mender aku tak tahu… tapi Luqman kena rescheduled to another week, sebab luqman baru first day dapat diarrhea.

Late in the afternoon, we planned to go out for a groceries shopping tapi terbantut, sebab family pak sedara and mak sedara datang berkunjung.. Magrib rumah jadik kosong sekejap, since mak and my sis when to makcik’s house nearby. tempah baju raya mungkin.. I got to rest abit and doing my things… Around 11pm family kakak aku balik and just 4 of us now.. mak, abah and fatihah already asleep…. tinggal aku laa depan notebook nih, with tv on and am typing in this empty page… and i would like to post it empty…

Need to do some reading and thinking.. preparation for Tuesday meeting.. hmm presenting my ideas and perhaps it may contribute a bit to the small organization… perhaps it may change the assumption that people always thought about call centre… hmm sayang my office notebook still on repair and am not able to acces the vpn… adoi rugi rugi..

Friday, 29 May 2009

I miss to write something like this…

Woke up @630. Terus ke bilik air, and get ready untuk solat. Lepas solat, aku keluar bilik and terus ke kitchen. Bancuh air sniri, either plain milo or my instant 3 in 1… Paling best my new collections of old town white coffee, hazelnut flavor.. huhu sedap banget tapi tak bleh minum selalu. takut addicted to coffee. hmm nyum nyum..  Lepas breakfast with a cup of drink, 2 keping roti sambil tgk tv3.. berita and MHI.. Kalau mak and abah ada dekat rumah tv pepagi dah terpasang. And i enjoy watching it.. kadang sampai jam 8am aku masih depan tv.

Pagi tadi aku baca sms from rahimah around 810. Message received on 7.18 but as usual, my hp memang away from me.. i replied to her and terus capai towel masuk bilik air. Bos aku mintak masuk awal skit since orang tak dak kat office.. so aku kena backup untuk orang2 yang tak dak and pi training.  Mandi secepat mungkin.. seingat aku.. itulah mandi aku yang paling pantas.  830 i was in my car already. 833 Aku bergerak dari rumah. 842, aku dah sampai office. Bukak notebook and start working.. Bottle air aku tak sempat nak isi.. about 930 aku berkesempatan mengisi my big bottle.. Lovely.

Hari ni, aku tak makan dengan kak ila, instead aku makan with Ivy. CRM kat call centre.. Ingat nak makan dekat Subang Parade, Manhattan fish market, macam teringin nak makan.. tapi dah sampai depan car park, pak guard nak tutup entry.. sebab parking penuh. Lupa pulak hari nih jumaat, hujung bulan. Memang ramai betul orang pompuan dalam kereta drive masuk ke Subang parade. Macam pesta pulak. Tak jadi masuk ke Subang parade, aku drive ke nearest bank. Withdraw cash and straight to Carrefour. Mula2 dok chit-chatted ngan Ivy, nak makan mana… hmm akhirnya yang paling ringkas and senang nak makan is kat Carrefour. kami pun bukannyer break panjang macam orang gomen.. hehe.. 1 hour je break aku.

Keluar dari Kopitiam tuh baru aku teringat.. Allah mak.. kedai nih kalau masuk.. pastu sure baju pun bau kedai makan.. errrkk. tak best. Bare in mind next time tak mo makan situ.. hmm presentation tak best.. makanan pun so so… i prefer to eat in Cili padi.. ada my fav ginger type food… nice. Very good for blood circulation..

After lunch aku terus naik atas dulu.. touch here and there and turun untuk solat zuhur. Aku baru teringat nak bagitau rahimah yang aku tak jadi transfer.. Due to certain condition yang tak dapat di elakkan.. plus bos tuh pun tak mo kacau study aku.  Punya la happy bos aku tuh bila dia tahu aku tak jadik transfer.. hmm probbaly ada hikmahnya. hmm Asri, willingly nak tolong aku with my future career plan. career plan… i’ve already have two.

Am i on my right track?

hampir kul 5pm.. rasa macam malas nak balik lagi… kerja pun tak habis lagi. hampir 615 baru kerja settle. pack barang and terus ke surau. Selesai solat, terus ke kereta. Dalam perjalanan balik, isi fuel tank penuh and drive home.

Once reached home, hidayah and luqman ada dekat rumah, hidayah with her favourite Upin and Ipin series on my notebook, Luqman with my mum.. habis kena gomol budak kecik tu. Letak segala harta aku dalam bilik and i start sembang dengan family sampai waktu magrib. Almost 8pm, mandi and ready untuk solat magrib. Dinner malam nih aku konon tak mo makan berat, tapi 2 keping roti and tuna yang aku buat untuk mak, aku letak skit and toast it utk dijadikan sandwich..

Now it is 7 mins before 1am.. it’s time to sleep.. Nite everybody. Chiow

It’s so Good to be ME *:)

This is just kind of all happy news that i received within this March 2009. i feel so blessed.. and i just wanted to share all these with u, My precious journal.. (plus whoever that stop and read this entry) ihiks

1. It was back on Last February that i was assigned to study on the user requirements for the new system. To help Admin dept to understands their processes and alhamdulillah, it was successfully submitted within its due date. Ala2 consultant la to resolved this hirewire.  In return, I was awarded merit award by my manager, and was selected to be at the coming CEO Diamond Club for Q4, this coming 24th March 2009

2. During the Kickoff meeting on last 7th march 2009,  i was awarded for the Director’s award AKA informal award, awarded by the company to me.. hmm this is for my overall performance in 2008.. walla this is my first time.. since i’ve converted to permanent.. Those 8 lucky persons that were selected from the 43 names dapat fly to Egypt.. probably turn aku lain tahun. hahaha berangan.. And of course this award comes with some cash.. kalau dulu2 sebulan gaji.. fuh but this time.. sorry economy jatuh.. so faham2 laa..  overall alhamdulillah

3. I was nominated and confirmed will take and seat for this one cert.. i am the system administrator with certificate-to-be.. walla Alhamdullillah.. Rezeki. So i will make sure that i pass this cert.. lepas tuh sure la kena “bond” for a year or more with my company.. but i dont care about that.. as long as i can learn something.. expanding my knowledge.. Orang sekarang kata ” grab apa sahaja yang datang” hahaha..

Huhuhu.. how do i thank you Ya Allah? aku rasa entah tak cukup dengan ucapan syukur dari mulut aku.. Thank you thank you thank you thank you.. x 1TB