Beautiful message

Little girl and her father were crossing a bridge.

The father was kind of scared so he asked his little daughter,
‘Sweetheart, please hold my hand so that you don’t fall into the river.’

The little girl said, ‘No, Dad.. You hold my hand.’

‘What’s the difference?’ Asked the puzzled father.

‘There’s a big difference,’ replied the little girl.

‘If I hold your hand and something happens to me, chances are that I may let your hand go. But if you hold my hand, I know for sure that no matter what happens, you will never let my hand go.’

In any relationship, the essence of trust is not in its bind, but in its bond.

So hold the hand of the person you love rather than expecting them to hold yours…

Kenapa asyik makanan?

i was supposed to post something here.. semalam.. hmm apa la nak jadi kan.. kat blog nih..

Last weekend was another good weekend i ever had with orang tuaku, ordinary ajer, nothing extraordinary, Spending my day with mak, berdua sahaja, jalan-jalan, shopping, beli barang, basuh kereta and makan lunch sama2. Happy and senyum meleret mak.. hehehe abah as usual, memang tak joint activity keluar aku and mak.. he prefer lepaking at home and tengok film tamil.. (hahaha)…

Two weeks ago.. itu a lil bit different, when my sister and her family is still around, menu lunch dekat rumah pun special sikit, that is because my sister is at home. But one of her (&My) favourite ulam-ulaman tak dak.. i asked mak.. “Makk.. awat tak buat pucuk ubi rebus with air asam, akak suka la makk. Kesiannya kak sila tak dapat mkn.. (sebenarnya aku yg nak mkn sgt2 hahaha)” Mak replied..”Bukan sempat makan pun, asyik berjalan sana sini”.. . Kadang-kadang bila tengok excitednya mak nak masak bila kakak2 or abang aku nak datang, macam best sangat, segala lauk pauh favourite dorang.. sure terhidang. Hmm macam aku nih tak merasa la sangat “excited” tuh.. dah kalau muka aku hari2 mak tengok.. i think it would be very nice, if once or twice mak masak special untuk aku.. (walhal, rasanya hari2 mak masakkan my favorite … hahaha)..  pernah sekali, aku berada jauh dari rumah.. haa masa tuh menangis rindu nak balik.. rindu mum’s favourite nasi goreng. hmm nyumm.. nyum.. ( nih apsal aku asyik citer pasal makan nih?) .. Owh btw.. ok. i should stop here, wanna eat my double cheese burger now.. dah ini je pilihan senang nak di buat..  I shall write to u later my precious.. Muahh. Chiow.

Love my Journal always…

Alhamdulillah.. I’ve been waiting for almost a month.. since i’ve finished my exams.. And now am able to make a come back to this lovely journal.. Rindu nak menaip.. rindu to write something that i probably can share with my friends or myself in this journal. Memang banyak cerita.. but too many constraints for me to type it here.. Now here i am.. typing and perhaps a lil bit later will spend my weekends browsing n visiting my friends blogs that i’ve longing to visit.

For a start.. i have another career options that has been offered to me.. and to tell the true I still can’t decide, whether I will leave my current dept or to stay.. but one thing I know.. It is not me to decide.. Rahimah already said ok.. but i am still waiting an answer from the other bos. Probably 50/50, i may be suitable for the post.. tapi maybe because i am a student after 6pm.. that would made a lil bit different… Ya Allah kenapa la peluang datang waktu aku attached to something? i really want to make this transfer a reality… but 50/50.. a chance either to stay nor transfer is totally unpredictable. Tuhan sahaja yang tahu..

Actually at the same time.. bos aku dont really OK with my transfer… i just can feelsss it… well orang pompuan kan ada good instinct better than men.. God gifts. She likes me, to be true.. or aku yang perasan.(hahaha) There is another offer for a great training ahead.. tapi macam mimpi pulak.. apa2 pun.. hopes that am not daydreaming.. sangat menarik. And actually if i stay. i still have lots to do n plans…

Izzati and her precious.

After a week usia Luqman Hakim, sorang lagi baby menyusul. My officemate, Izzati dapat baby perempuan.. I went and visited her at the Columbia Hospital. Hospital baru aku rasa.. Not bad. Bilik pun besar, dalam bilik ada long coach untuk visitor and very huge personal bath room. Rasanya boleh menari dalam bilik air tuh. Hahaha

Before end of office hour last Friday, I was in a discussion with my bos, inaz and Ivy. Hujan lebat sangat, sampai hampir la kami tak jadi nak visit Izzati. Dugaan betul. Dalam hujan lebat tuh jugak la aku keluar office pergi ke petrol pump and kasi penuh tank. Rahimah and fadzly tunggu aku kat BHP on the way ke Sunway Pyramid. Kami convoy 3 buah kereta ke Hosp Colombia. Punya la jamm teruk arah tol LDP. Adoi apa nak buat that is the only way to the location.

Aku tak pernah pergi ke hospital itu, so aku follow bos aku dari belakang… agak sesat sana sini jugak la nak ke hospital tuh. Puchong is no longer a sandy village. Why I called it sandy sebab, dulu puchong is kawasan perlombongan. When I was in primary school dulu, kawsan puchong ini hanya sampai kem tentera Kinrara sahaja. Selebihnya masih kawasan lombong. Hmm itu pasal la kakak aku tak mahu invest beli rumah kat kawasan ini. Same goes to Subang jaya, Masa aku sekolah rendah dulu subang jaya hanya setakat SS19, tak der jambatan fly over yg merentasi KESAS, USJ pun masa tuh tak wujud lagi.. apatah lagi KESAS.. pun tak wujud lagi. Penghujung jalan dekat SS19 subang jaya, hanya padang pasir, bekas lombong and hutan belukar kecil. Now, USJ, Puchong are among busiest townships in Klang Valley.. Sooner or later akan ada system LRT or komuter dekat 2 kawasan ini..

Back to cerita pi hospital.. I reached there approximately 640pm. Terus naik

Izzati's lil princess

tingkat satu and met izzati. Dapat peluang pegang anak izzati.. haa syiok. I wasn’t really into baby or kid before, but after I have this close relation with Hidayah, it seems that Allah has given “hidayah” to me, I think, now I love kids and I wish I will have a chance to love and raise of my own. Insya Allah. And I always see a good side of them, tak kisah la rupa macam mana, nakal macam mana.. I just start liking n loving them. Isn’t it miracle? For me yes.. because before this.. I simply ignored their existence. Bad huh.. Comel anak izzati.. do I feel jealous..? hmm a bit I think.. she is so lucky to have kid at her young age of 26. All the best to u and ur kid Izzati. May Allah bless you and ur family.

At almost 8pm, we planned to go off. Solat magrib dekat surau basement and all of us decided to have dinner together. There are 6 of us. Cantik jugak plan tuh. Carik punya carik, we found this nice restaurant. Bumbu Bali. nice décor, excellent service and good food too. But please make sure perut anda betul2 kosong. I don’t want to eat too heavy for dinner.. usually just with bread and a cup of milk/coffee/milo, but today is kind of special, sebab kitaorang tak pernah nak keluar makan sekali ramai2. Tak de kesempatan. So I just ordered grilled salmon. Walla.. nice. Kawan2 aku yang lain semua ordered nasi with weird name on it.. plus a very huge ½ chicken.. Gosh. Lucky aku tak order yang itu, it is definitely a portion of two person.. sapa larat makan ½ chicken. Hahaha. At the end of the dinner, hmm Rahimah pulak belanja and bayar semua. Thank You boss. Lain kali kita keluar makan lagi kay.

I reached home 1030pm. Wah.. rehat kejap, bersih kan diri lepas tuh mata aku tak boleh lelap. Probably sebab kenyang sangat kot. Hahaha. I slept at 2am.

“Cintaku tak sampai”

Aku janji nak sambung about two items on my previous entry. But i would skipped for the interesting article that i promise. For that article it is in my office email, macam malas nak on VPN, since 3G kat umah aku nih signal pun very weak.. aku terpaksa tukar setting ke GPRS. Sadis je.

Well the title is “Cinta ku tak sampai”, but this is  not my love story pun.. Aku belum ada cerita macam tuh lagi.. Untuk cerita ini aku tak akan letak nama sebenar watak asal aku terpaksa rahsiakan.. hmm di takuti menjadi sebab runtuhnya rumah tangga umah lain, tak baik kan?.. so i really have to be very careful here.. hmm anyway i told my friend that i want to publish his story here.. He said ok.. and i am glad that he trust me.. Thank you for trusting me friend..

* Terdapat beberapa ayat atau perkataan yang aku pinjam dari diari si perempuan, because aku tak pandai nak bercerita pasal cinta.. so aku pinjam kay.. Harap maklum.

Ini kisah tiga orang hamba allah yang aku kenal.. Nak di jadikan cerita.. hamba A and hamba B belajar di dalam kampus yang sama dengan aku.. They are friends of mine and they are couple since 1997. If a i’m not mistaken. According to the diary it says that this girl has been friended with this guy.. lama kelamaan they become couple.. sebab dah hari2 jumpa sebab satu class and this guy memang suka kat awek nih and awek nih pun sweet.. i know her and indeed she is sweet.

So nak dijadikan cerita lagi mereka berdua nih masih lagi couple sehingga 2000.. tak silap aku.. went this girl tell me that she work at this one place.. aku tahu tempat nih. and at this place la this girl met another guy, who is my xschoolmate masa dulo2.  hmm as per in the diary that was compiled by her (and she gave to my friend (i called it “C”) before she were married to A.. hmm bila baca aku rasa sedih sangat.. as if she need to sacrify her love just for A.. yang dah lama dia kenal..

According to my friend C, that guy A ada jumpa dia. told him that he cannot live without her.. and so and so..  Yang the lady pulak rasa that she cannot leave this A guy sebab dah lama sangat kenal and family semua dah kenal.. and rasa terhutang budi mungkin. ( this is what happen if u are in long long term relationship minus marriage – not good actually) This lady B pun memang dah jauh cinta gila2 ngan kawan aku yang C nih.. hmm i assumed n summarized according to the diary that she composed.. rasa sedih pulak baca… akhirnya lady B kahwin ngan Guy A.. and after a year kot my friend C kahwin ngan pompuan lain.

Sadis la kisah cinta macam nih… Aku rasa kalau aku jadik kawan aku yg B tuh.. i can’t lie to my feelings and myself.. hmm aku tak reti nak menipu hati aku.. Tapi my personal opinion is kenapa guy A baru terhegeh-hegeh nak masuk meminang bila ada guy C yang this lady B betul2 fallen with. Punyalah lama dorang couple bila ada pesaing baru la nak meminang.. Ini la dia orang lelaki.. selagi tak dak pesaing dan tiada pencabar.. they will simply horey horey.. Bayangkan.. dorang couple since 1997 sampai 2001.. punya la lama. Aku bukan nak sebelah mana-mana.. tapi i know this lady B.. dia memang pompuan baik.. bukan jenis yang suka huhahuha.. Itu la orang tua2 kata tak elok “berkawan” lama2.. hmm (ini quote mak aku). Whatever it is.. i wish and pray that Guy A and Laby B bahagia… and my friend C.. dont worry man eventhough u r not hensem janji sekarang ko dah ada dua orang anak cuns..

hehehe.. So ambik la pengajaran..especially lelaki.. if lambat2 melepas la korang..

i cannot publish the diary sebab.. bagi aku isinya terlalu berharga.. Tapi kalau aku la jadik lady B.. hmm aku tak tahu nak buat cam ner.. tetiba kena kahwin ngna orang yang kita anggap.. ” he is nice to me.. but i dont love him enough or deeply”

orang puteh kata ” it takes 2 to tango”

Sekian cerita “Cinta ku tak sampai”